Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

The summer sizzle melted my mojo. Autumn left me feeling as colorless and crumpled as the dry, dead leaves crunching beneath my feet and as delicate and ready to disintegrate if stepped upon.


The new year has arrived but not in “full white cloaked charm”.

It was unseasonably warm in NJ until last week. The cold reminder of the first year anniversary of the last time I saw Joseph.

During my self-imposed exile, I did some blog hopping, Etsy and e-Bay shopping, sat like a bird without a tweet on Twitter


and oohed and ahhed at the colossal collection of creativity on Pinterest.

Each time logging on with hopes of being inspired and motivated. Each time logging off deflated; less myself, more somebody else — overwhelmed by what I saw and underwhelmed by what I am.

These venues give everyone a voice and it seems at times many are singing the same song in perfect harmony.

When you join in the chorus, you often can’t hear your own voice or worse, mistake it for another’s.

My senses were bombarded and I became numb to the over saturation of stimuli.

I want this, that and the other thing. I want it all. I don’t know what I want. I want nothing at all.

It was not until I closed my laptop and opened my door; logged off and stepped out; stopped looking all over the web and started searching my heart that I found what I longed for.


I sought THE Creator and was filled with true inspiration, gratitude, and love.



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26 Responses to Been-trest

  1. Marilyn B. Hughes January 15, 2012 at 5:33 pm #

    All I can say is Amen to that!


  2. ain't for city gals January 15, 2012 at 6:28 pm #

    Deborah…I have a post scheduled for tomorrow that just about is word for word….in the same idea anyway. I’m pretty much done with blogging and the computer in general. Everything is a cycle of life including the virtual world….

  3. Betsy January 15, 2012 at 6:30 pm #

    Wow, this is so true,. A post I will remember.

  4. Linda January 15, 2012 at 7:23 pm #

    Enjoy yourself. Lately all I pretty much have time for is reading the blogs I follow. Haven’t been doing a lot more.
    Good luck with whatever you do, Deborah. God bless. ♥

  5. Susan G January 15, 2012 at 7:45 pm #

    I am so very glad you found some inspiration! TRULY it lighted your pilot light! This is beautiful!

  6. kathleen January 15, 2012 at 8:20 pm #

    Wow – we have shared so many of the same thoughts and feelings. I stopped blogging in late July, feeling that I had lost my muse. I want to write, but afraid the cookie jar is empty…only crumbs.

    It’s a New Year, full of wonder and delight. I’m planning to start up the engine and go go go! Where it will lead me, nobody knows…

    Happy New Year Deborah!

  7. Missy January 15, 2012 at 9:01 pm #

    Hey sweet girlfriend I’m glad you found inspiration from the ONLY one that can truly inspire our hearts….HE is what matters after all. :) I do have to say, that I have missed you so much. You’re such a blessing to my heart and I miss you when we don’t get to chat. You’ll have to let me know what’s goin on inside your heart and life. I love you dearly my sweet friend…I really do.
    Missy :)

  8. lisa moran/Bilancia Designs January 15, 2012 at 9:50 pm #

    Wow…quite an inspirational message.
    It’s so wonderful to see you “back”…
    Wishing you a beautiful week~
    Lisa xo

  9. Anna January 15, 2012 at 10:59 pm #

    Hear, hear!

    I feel ya. I’m about ready to pitch the internet all together. Seems like I need longer breaks more frequently.

  10. 'D' January 16, 2012 at 8:39 am #

    I don’t know what it is that I’m doing different, but I don’t seem to have enough time to do all of the projects that are waiting for me in 2012. I always seem to be searching, the internet, for something that I need for one of those projects,

    It’s also been a time when I find myself sending out an awful lot of letters, mostly because I’ve learned of the passing of a family member or an old friend. I haven’t had the time to write anything for my blog, maybe people will think that I’m one of those that have passed on. I hope not…..

    GIVE UP THE COMPUTER!!!!!…..NO WAY!!!!!!!…..I would miss all of those that are on here..GOD too…he comes up every day, in so many ways. All you have to do is read what your friends here have posted to you.

    May GOD BLESS YOU Deborah, and lead you to your hearts desire. Take care.

  11. Terri January 16, 2012 at 8:49 am #

    well… first of all… It is soooo good to hear from Fairfield House again!! and…. yes I agree… so very easy to get over whelmed sometimes with the availability of the “World Wide Web” …. :) … I am so glad you posted what you did…. Thank you, Terri

  12. Laura Ingalls Gunn January 16, 2012 at 10:00 am #

    Yes, my friend. Yes.

  13. Zuzu January 16, 2012 at 10:34 am #

    Where inspiration begins. And never ends. So glad you found it again, Deborah.

  14. Debbie Refresh Restyle January 17, 2012 at 6:53 am #


  15. Jennifer January 20, 2012 at 1:01 pm #

    a resounding amen! for some crazy reason your posts quit popping into my inbox. blast! must fix. love you!

  16. Debbie January 20, 2012 at 3:02 pm #

    Beautiful post, Deborah. Nature always inspires. We need to remember that in our digital age. Your bird is lovely.

  17. Christine January 20, 2012 at 5:11 pm #

    Beautiful work, glad you found true inspiration…wow.

  18. Faye January 20, 2012 at 7:49 pm #

    I am sorry for your loss of your nephew a year ago. Anniversary dates are really rough. I hope you don’t give up showing your work online. This piece of art is amazing and very beautiful

  19. anne January 21, 2012 at 12:39 pm #

    Lovely. What a moving post.

  20. Mary C. Nasser January 21, 2012 at 1:10 pm #

    Gorgeous, gorgeous painting.
    So sorry for your loss of your nephew a year ago. I cannot imagine the pain. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    Mixed-Media Map Art

  21. EVA January 21, 2012 at 11:58 pm #

    A fabulous painting on a perfect backdrop. It sure captures the feeling of the photo above it.

    Welcome to Paint Party Friday! It’s great to have you join us!

  22. mandy at eight is enough January 22, 2012 at 3:32 am #

    oh…this is fantastic…its a great piece for the home…xxx

  23. Anne January 22, 2012 at 2:13 pm #

    I love this! Gorgeous work!!


  24. gloria January 23, 2012 at 10:47 am #

    What a great paintings Glad to meet you and truly sorry about your nephew. It’s always so hard when we lose someone we love so much. Your work is great, look forward to more. Have a wonderful week.

  25. geckostone January 24, 2012 at 9:06 pm #

    Wow, what a beautiful post! I have felt this way many times! You have lifted my spirit big time! Thank you!

  26. Sheri Cook January 25, 2012 at 9:49 pm #

    Your posts this week make me miss the ocean!
    I adore that bird and the choice of canvas!
    Belated Happy PPF wishes!
    Sheri Cook/HappyHorseStudio

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